urself, pretender

so who are u?

urself? an actor? or pretender?

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most of us prefers to be just themself

but can u really be urself all the time?

i do wonder what makes us, our true self

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we were brought up, bla bla bla

till now, i'm sure we changed alot rite?

so last time (few years ago) ur a freaking nerd,

now u drink till drunk, smoke and gamble like nobody's business

so most ppl change as time goes by, diff evironment and stuff

attitude and personality as well

so when ppl ask u
"oh you've changed... u were not like that like that last time"

by then... are u still being urself?

for eg. MJ

oh.. we all know MJ changed almost everthing bout him
due to some reason

was he still being himself?

why wanna change urself?

for the better or for the worst?

has he lost confidence in his ownself?

new personality maybe
anyway, who are we to judge rite?

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fine, pretender

oh, i'm sure we all hate pretenders eh,

but are we one ourself?

haha

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• a person who pretends, esp. for a dishonest purpose
• a person who makes unjustified or false claims, statements, etc., as about personal status, abilities, intentions, or the like
• or to make believe

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so.. being a pretender is not good

nope, no good

"he is feeling very sad right now, but he pretended to be happy while he was at the party"

is that good? hide emotions wor

u don wan ur emotions to run wild dont u?

don wanna spoil the joyful atmosphere

if u knew some truth/secrets

but ur tear between right and wrong

wat would u do?

pretended u do not know wat happened?

u tell the truth, whole family will be in chaotic situation

u pretended nothing happened, u 'save' the family by not triggering that situation

but, not the problem

it's still there

solve it?

sounds easy but i guess at times,

there are no solutions at all

delay gua~

pray & wish miracles to happen

typical humans. haha

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so, once again, who are u?

me?

I am Bernard Keith

yes, i love being myself

but i don deny that i am a very very good pretender as well =)

haha.. it depends on the situation

i recalled that once

i could pretend as if it's so real until so many ppl believed me

remember vivien's housewarming?

i went out in front of her house to teman vic for a ciggy break

no, i don smoke =D

when we went bac inside to the group

someone asked me where i went..

i said.. i went out to smoke

and all of them.. and i really mean ALL OF THEM

believed me.. HAHAHA..!

u should have seen their faces,

stunned & shocked

eyes & mulut buka besar-besar

mabel was like WTF? lol~

so.. can u see how good i am? =)

ppl who really really knows me..

knows wat kinda person i am

so, don hate me k? ^^